loveWell, hello, everyone.. :)
actually, I'll rephrase: .. rather than "everyone", I'll say "anyone".. for I doubt many people would be interested in the life of a weird, Mexican teenager.
So, first off.. I really don't feel like sharing my real name, so for the sake of mystery (and my peace of mind:P), I'll introduce myself as Miema. I'm 18 years old. I live in Tampico, Mexico. It's a small city, on the northeastern part of the country. We've got a beach :D and it gets pretty humid here.
I sort of feel that I should share my life with someone - not because I think it's interesting, but because it might help me somehow. I just don't know how to start, rather, WHERE to start. I guess I should just begin with the present. If anyone who's reading this has lived a little, he or she will catch on pretty quick. I don't blame you if you're compelled to stop reading and check your email instead.. Hell, if you're still reading, I think it's a battle won :P. This may seem like another story of heart break, loneliness, longing, teenage-hood. It probably is. But then again, it has been said that every human being is like a universe in hisself; oceans of memories, mountains of pain, rivers of tears, and stars.. stars of feelings.
I'm not sure how long this should be. I'll try and pace myself.
I love him. Whenever I start writing about him, that's the first thing that comes to mind. I always start off by that same sentence. It's a reflex. An instinct. It seems so cold to refer to such an intense and complex feeling as a reflex or instinct. But it is, in a way, both. You can't control love - you don't see it coming. You can't avoid love either. You get to a point where your brain grows fuzzy, and, that which many people refer to as your heart, takes over.
When I realized that I was falling inlove with him, I cried. I cried in fear. I knew deep inside that love walks hand in hand with pain. Pain that only the complexity of love can describe. Pain I had wanted to avoid forever. Pain that never lets go.
Ladies and gentlemen (or whoever is still reading this) brace yourselves.
